Dear Bossip,
Please don’t go hard on me (LOL!) I’ve been “with” this guy on and off for five years. We started talking to on Facebook, and that is where our relationship happens.
Although we’ve never met we have such a beautiful connection. When we first started talking he sold drugs. He was actually shot the first day we started speaking and had to walk on crutches. I never found that sexy actually. I think drug dealers are the scum of the earth but I saw potential in him.
A couple of months into getting to know each other he said he had given up that life of a D boy and wanted to open up several businesses. Being a business owner I would always give him tips. He then gave up that dream and wanted to become a rapper and I was not totally with it, but I stood by his side. He later gave that up and he said he had become a home health aide. We ended up getting into an argument and stopped talking for several months.
He started to message me on Facebook again and exchanged numbers. Everything was great and then he went to jail for a month. I made myself clear I would not be speaking to him again because he constantly kept committing crimes and telling me he would change but made no effort.
We would still speak here and there but not every day like before. He ended up having a baby with another girl. Although we were never “together, together” and he was free to do whatever he wanted I still felt hurt. He didn’t even tell me about a girlfriend or having a baby. I found out on FACEBOOK! Yes, FACEBOOK. I confronted him about it and he didn’t deny it. I already told him I don’t date men with kids but I fell so hard for him.
We ended up dating other people but still flirting a little. One day he laid all his feelings on the table and was supposed to visit me, but he flaked. We planned on rescheduling at some point but did not make a date. We continued to talk every day. I had a feeling he had been up to no good because he would sell things on his Instagram and Facebook page (iPads, sneakers, jewelry, etc.). So, I asked him where he was getting all this brand new stuff to sell and he said he and his friends were opening up a sneaker store blah blah blah. They were selling the merchandise on Instagram until the store was ready.
I was skeptical because of his past and I didn’t really believe him. I started to question him about the business and he had no idea what he was doing. He kept saying he had partners and his friends knew what they were doing, He had no business plan and beside that he and his
friends literally just decided to open a store out of the blue, and they planned on doing it in 1 month. I kept asking questions because honestly who opens a store in a month? I just felt like he was gonna get the –ish stick, or he was just plain lying and doing something illegal. Turns out the plan for the store was real, they had signs made and booked the location of the store.
Out of NOWHERE he stopped contacting me and stopped updating his social networking sites. I had such a bad feeling something happened so I checked his Facebook and sure enough he was in jail. I was so upset. He was telling me he was doing the right thing, and he was so assuring that he was on a good path. I was at home watching the news one day and he came up. He was arrested for selling heroin. He also had his barely 1 year old daughter with him while making a drug deal. He ended up selling drugs to an undercover cop and going to jail on criminal sale of a controlled substance and endangering the welfare of a child. I’m staring at my TV in such shock feeling betrayed like WHAT THE HELL!!!! He was lying to me!!!! And, the fact that he took his daughter with him to sell drugs??? I checked his Facebook daily, his twitter, Instagram EVERYTHING in hopes he gets out.
I don’t know how long someone gets for those types of charges. I have not been to his court dates and I don’t know his friends. So, I’m just left in the dust as to what’s happening. I’m so upset I really care and have deep feelings for him even though we’ve never met. I know he feels the same. I just feel soooooooo betrayed, angry, annoyed ugh! I’m sitting here like a dummy on the inmate lookup website so I can find out info, and nothing has been updated yet. I’m so lost if he does get out should I cut all ties with him and just forget him? Or should I stand by his side and hope he doesn’t mess up again? Those charges are serious. I doubt he’ll be out anytime soon on those charges. By the way he’s been in jail for 3 months now. – In Love With An Inmate
Dear Ms. In Love With An Inmate,
Face palm! Face palm! Face palm! Wait, hold up. Why am I face palming myself, let slap some grease on my hand and face palm your dumb a**!
Ma’am, really! Really? You want me to answer this letter about you being upset, angry, and feeling betrayed over some man you’ve been communicating with on Facebook, and you’ve never met in person? You really want me to give you advice about a man with whom you have a fake relationship with? You want me to tell you what to do about some fantasized relationship you have in your head over a man who continues to get locked up for drug crimes, and the most recent arrest was because he was selling drugs to an undercover cop and he had his 1-year old child with him during the drug deal? You really want me to answer this?
Wow! There is a fleet of short yellow buses running through the hood right now, and you need to be on one. I’m rounding up all you ratched birds and bringing you to the Boarding School of Changing Birds To Women. If it takes me changing one bird at a time, I’m committed, and I’m starting with you!
You obviously are not bright. You obviously have nothing to do with your time, energy, and space in this world. You know how I know this: Well, because you spend most of your time online checking his twitter, Facebook, and Instagram pages. You stalk him and his friends online to see what he’s doing, and what he’s up to. Clearly this is a sign of someone who has nothing to do, and has no concept of life in the real world. Then, you’re sitting at home, (which I’m certain you do all day), and the news blares of him being arrested. Again, obviously you have nothing to do with your time. You are so busy living online that you are not living in the real world where real people interact with each other.
Why are you not at work? Why are you not in school? Shouldn’t you be doing something proactive, like, oh, I don’t know running your so-called business. Oh, yeah, you claim to be a business owner, but how can you be a business owner when you spend so much of your time stalking him online? What business are you running? Honey, it must be fictional and fantasy online relationships.
And, yes, you are dummy! Your a** has developed an online pseudo relationship with some man who has lied to you, stood you up, and basically has no interest in meeting you, or being with you. Who spends that much time online communicating with someone, and it’s you obviously live in the same city since you saw his arrest being blasted on the news, but you can’t meet in person and see one another? Girl, ain’t nobody that damn busy. He ain’t doing –ish but running the damn streets. He can make the time to meet you if he was really interested. But, he isn’t. You are just some random chick he is entertaining online. And, your a** fell for the ole okey doke, and sitting up here talking about you’re in love. How? And, in love with who? You don’t even know him. UGH! Between the weave glue, coloring of your hair, and hood mentality you’ve clearly lost your damn mind.
Look at the obvious facts:
Fact 1.) He flaked when you were supposed to meet. Don’t you think if he was interested in you that he would have made it to the meeting, and if he didn’t then he would have rescheduled, or planned another. It doesn’t take five years to meet someone. If he can run the streets, then I’m certain he can make it a point to come see you and spend time with you.
Fact 2.) He had a girlfriend, and then had a child. And, you said you were upset and angry that he didn’t tell you. Uhm, sweetie, he doesn’t owe you anything. He doesn’t owe you an explanation. You’re just some random chick, out of a many, that he is talking to online. You’re not in a relationship. You’re not his woman. Let go of this fantasy, and online romance. It’s not real!
Fact 3.) He’s gone through several job ideas over the past five years. Honey, he went from wanting to be a rapper, to being a home health aide, to owning a business. Bwahahahaha! The only consistent thing he has been doing is selling drugs and going to jail. Now, any smart person would be able to deduce from this logic that he is not interested in working. He is committed to selling drugs and going to jail.
Fact 4.) He’s selling merchandise on Instagram and Facebook. SMDH! Chile, really? Where is he getting this stolen merchandise? And, what business is he going to open, yet, he has no formal training, no business expertise, or any idea about opening and running a business. Think damnit! He’s a hustler. He’s about making fast money. There is no good coming from any of this.
Fact 5.) He’s in jail! You found out he got locked up from seeing his mug shot on television. And, this damn dummy took his 1-year old child with him on a drug run. Who does that? He obviously is not concerned about the welfare of his child. He is only caught up in himself. He has no regard for human life. He’s an **hole, and a dumb one at that! He needs to be locked up!
So, if you want sit and wait on him and be by his side, and be his ride or die chick, and….LMBAO! Girl, how can you be by someone’s side and you’ve never seen his side? You don’t even know what his front, back, or side looks like. Why am I even continuing this response? Goodbye! – Terrance Dean
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