Dear Bossip,
I have been dating a man for over a year now. We met through social media and I immediately fell for him.
He is fairly new to the city we live in. He moved here to gain a better life for him and his family. He proclaimed to be every woman’s dream man: Stable, family-oriented, hard-working, a visionary, etc. Sounded too good to be true, right? WRONG!
We have some serious issues through the course of us dating. Of course, the first 3 ½ months of our relationship were in bliss (not without a few bumps in the road). One thing that I did notice from the beginning was that he is REALLY big on communication, which is completely understandable. I also explained to him that I didn’t like to talk on the phone very much (Especially with my job. I work in public service and sometimes sitting on the phone all day is distracting). I preferred to text or being in his physical presence. But, I decided, in order for this relationship to work, it is something I would have to do. He wanted to sit on the phone ALL day long while we are both at work (He couldn’t text much at work because he worked with his hands), and then we would be with each other almost every day.
Now, neither one of us had a vehicle at the time when we initially started dating. So, I would ride the bus from one side of town to the other to be with him (he never reciprocated). This lasted a little over a month, which didn’t really bother me, because I did want to be with him and spend quality time together to try and build a relationship.
So, fast forward a few months later, and I noticed he was acting a little strange. There was no affection or anything happening between us for a couple of weeks. I went on a girl’s trip, and he drops me off at the airport and doesn’t hug or kiss me goodbye. I text him once in the airport, and mentioned it. He calls me, going off about how we hadn’t touched or kissed or anything in a few weeks so what was the big deal. And, in the midst of the conversation, he reveals that he went through my phone, and found some text messages from a person I was dealing with before we even started dating. And, I mean OLD text messages. He got upset and just went on a rampage. We talked for a few hours and got everything resolved. OR SO I THOUGHT.
A few weeks later we had a deep conversation about both of our pasts, and laid everything out on the table. I moved in with him after my lease was up, and everything seemed to be going ok. NOT!
He then asks me to drive with him 14 hours out of state so that he could pick up his children who were planning to spend the summer with him. I agreed. I actually felt like we had a little family. I grew close to his children in a matter of a month and a half. There was some distance again between us because he was very protective of his children being around another woman. But, honestly, his kids liked me. I liked them. During the time the children were there, we had 2 verbal altercations, one about my “attitude” and it escalated into something so ridiculous. The other altercation was about the way he disciplined one of his sons. It personally didn’t sit right with me, and he overheard me saying that to one of my co-workers and that made him go left.
Fast forward to the last few weeks. He has still been going through my phone, questioning me about every single person I talk to. He has a problem with me venting to my friends about what has gone on between us (he says that I “dog” him to my friends), and then gets upset because I didn’t tell an ex acquaintance the details of the problems in our relationship. He keeps saying he loves me, but doesn’t trust me because I am a liar (he feels like I wasn’t honest about a person I was dealing with before him, which I really don’t see why that is even relevant).
I do love him. He is a good man. He just has SERIOUS trust issues and he is extremely insecure in our relationship. And I have told him that multiple times because only an insecure man goes through a woman’s phone after 2 ½ months of knowing her. I have tried to show him that I am not concerned about anyone else, only him. He STILL doesn’t see it. I am at my wits end. I feel like I have to prove myself entirely too much in this relationship. I haven’t had many committed relationships, but geez, this is something I’ve NEVER experienced.
Am I trying too hard? Am I forcing something that isn’t there? Is it my responsibility as a woman to build his confidence in our relationship? Should I even continue to be with him? Or, are his trust issues just going to continue to get worse? I need some SERIOUS advice on this because I really just don’t know what else to do. – Dealing With Insecurity 101
Dear Ms. Dealing With Insecurity 101,
Yes, you are trying too hard. Yes, you are forcing something that isn’t there. No, it is not your responsibility to build his confidence in your relationship. No, you should not continue to be with him. As a matter of fact, leave him today. And, yes, his trust issues will continue to get worse.
Ma’am, you’ve barely been dating a man for a year, and you’ve already moved in with him, and met his kids? Don’t you think that is a tad bit too fast? Who moves in with someone within months of dating them, especially someone you met online? Chile, you all be moving way too fast for my liking. You barely know someone in a few months, hell, even a year, and you’re already moving in, meeting their children, and playing house! And, let’s not be too eager and naïve to overlook his insecurities, and that during the early stages while dating, when neither of you had a car, you were the one taking the bus to his home and he never reciprocated. Sweetie, you overlooked too many red flags. This is a hot ass mess of a relationship!
What man makes his woman take the bus across town to come see him? If you’re going to be taking the bus, then he should be providing your bus fare, having a cooked meal waiting for you, and pampering you with trinkets, flowers, back rubs, foot massages, and making sure you were well-treated. However, I am sure he has done none of this, not even since you’ve been together and you living with him. But, let’s back up a minute, and let’s re-evaluate your statement, “He proclaimed to be every woman’s dream man: Stable, family-oriented, hard-working, a visionary, etc.” How is he every woman’s dream man and he doesn’t have a car? You both were on the bus, and you were the one taking the bus to go see him. If he was every woman’s dream, then he would had be taking the bus to come see you. Hell, he would have saved his money, bought a car, and would have driven across town just to be with you! It’s sad to see that you were the one more invested in this relationship than he was, and is.
Then, after only a few months of dating this man he is going through your phone and questioning you about a relationship prior to him, and you let him talk down to you and interrogate you like you’re a child and that you have done something wrong? Why? Why would you put up with this? He went through your personal property, accusing you of something, and you’re sitting your dumbass up here trying to explain to him how much you love him, and that you only want to be with him. He never apologized for what he did. He never shared how he didn’t want to hurt you, or that he did it as malicious intent. He never owned up to it other than to find some dirt on you and when he didn’t like what he saw in your phone he withheld sex from you for weeks and never told you why. Now, girl, a man punishing you by means of withholding sex, his affection, and sitting in anger with you is a man you don’t need to be with. He is a woman. He is dangerous. He is time bomb waiting to explode. But, you don’t see any of this because you’re desperate for d**k. You have very low self-worth and self-esteem. You are anxious and thirsty for a man, and the first man who came along and showed you any type of interest, you jumped on him.
Sweetie, the signs were already there in the beginning but you were too blind by d**k to see them. He told you that he was big on communication, and despite you not being interested in talking on the phone, and your preference to text, you bend to accommodate him and his request. Notice that you were talking on the phone ALL day, as you say. Well, the reason he had you on the phone all day is because he wanted to monitor you and your every move. If you were on the phone with him, then he knew where you were and what you were doing. Yet, the moment you are out of his sight, the moments you are not on the phone with him, and the time when you’re out doing you and he has not communicated with you, then he feels that you are up to something. You are lying about your whereabouts, and who you’re with.
This man has control issues. He is controlling you, your moves, and who you can hang out with and where you can go. The man had you moving in with him within a few months of knowing him. Girl! That man doesn’t want a relationship with you, he wants to control you, dominate you, and make you his servant. Get out of this relationship today! Trust me, it won’t be long until he is physically and verbally abusing you. Right now, he is emotionally and mentally wearing you down. He has you all up in your feelings and in your head trying to prove that you are not cheating, or doing anything. He has you questioning yourself, your relationship, and making you feel that you need to reaffirm your commitment to him, and your undying love for him. GET OUT OF THIS RELATIONSHIP!
And, before I finish, this man had you driving 14 hours with him to go pick up his children for the summer. Why does he have you traveling across the damn country to go pick up his children and you had never met them before? That is not how you introduce someone to your children. That is not how you make an introduction. The only reason he dragged you along with him is because he didn’t want to leave you alone while he was gone. He wanted to make sure he knew where you were, and you right there beside him.
Save yourself, and get out of this relationship. He is not the man for you. You have let your judgment become skewed and displaced all of these red flags as signs of affection, attention, and love. THEY ARE NOT! They are signs of an insecure, immature, and controlling man. He has some serious issues. Leave him today before he starts hitting you. He has already started separating and alienating you from your friends. Notice how he judges them, and your relationship with them. He doesn’t like how you portray him to them, and pretty soon he is going to demand you stop talking with them and hanging out with them. Listen, and take heed. – Terrance Dean
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